Where'd You Go... I miss you so...
It's been a very long while, and though I've had constant promptings, I've declined to update my blog. I dunno why, it wasn't laziness, more like.. preferring to enjoy my time in Penang doing things I can only do in Penang. Dota, clubbing, more dota... that sorta thing.
Some of you know (b'cos I've told you) that I've had this emptiness feeling inside me, loss of appetite and basically all the general symptoms of anxiety. Now I know why. The feelings now eat at the pit of my stomach. Or maybe that's because I haven't had my morning choc milk. I doubt that, this feeling is one I've had before... I now realise that. It's the same emptiness I felt when I was about to leave Adelaide and come back to Penang (refer to http://www.xanga.com/paperprofessor).
Although I'm only going to UK tomorrow, it feels like I haven't seen you guys in ages, I'm already consciously missing everyone, especially my friends, my cousins, my family... Some of you have touched my life, albeit for only a year or two, but such has your impression been on me that... I think I could cry. Maybe not cry, but at least tear.
I hate to classify, but some of you I'm going to miss more than others. Some of you got me presents, going away cards, etc, and I don't know how to express my gratitude. The pity of it is that it doesn't ease my anxiety nor does it ease saying goodbye. I know it's not really goodbye.. it's more like "goodbye for now". The thought of not seeing you guys for a year is more than I can bear.
My mood song at the moment is... you guessed it... Where'd You Go by Fort Minor. Never mind Mike Shinoda's raps, when Holly Brook sings, the pain temporarily eases. "Where'd you go..? I miss you so, seems like it's been forever, since you've been gone...". Only thing is, you and me have yet to say goodbye. We haven't been apart, and already I'm missing you. Sigh...
I'm not foolish enough to hope I don't miss you guys. That's probably gonna be impossible. But I do hope I settle these feelings down early enough into my UK adventure, so I can concentrate on my studies and get it over in 1 year. They say the 10 months will just fly. I wish it to fly, only hoping I'm prepared for my exams at the end of it.
Some of you know (b'cos I've told you) that I've had this emptiness feeling inside me, loss of appetite and basically all the general symptoms of anxiety. Now I know why. The feelings now eat at the pit of my stomach. Or maybe that's because I haven't had my morning choc milk. I doubt that, this feeling is one I've had before... I now realise that. It's the same emptiness I felt when I was about to leave Adelaide and come back to Penang (refer to http://www.xanga.com/paperprofessor).
Although I'm only going to UK tomorrow, it feels like I haven't seen you guys in ages, I'm already consciously missing everyone, especially my friends, my cousins, my family... Some of you have touched my life, albeit for only a year or two, but such has your impression been on me that... I think I could cry. Maybe not cry, but at least tear.
I hate to classify, but some of you I'm going to miss more than others. Some of you got me presents, going away cards, etc, and I don't know how to express my gratitude. The pity of it is that it doesn't ease my anxiety nor does it ease saying goodbye. I know it's not really goodbye.. it's more like "goodbye for now". The thought of not seeing you guys for a year is more than I can bear.
My mood song at the moment is... you guessed it... Where'd You Go by Fort Minor. Never mind Mike Shinoda's raps, when Holly Brook sings, the pain temporarily eases. "Where'd you go..? I miss you so, seems like it's been forever, since you've been gone...". Only thing is, you and me have yet to say goodbye. We haven't been apart, and already I'm missing you. Sigh...
I'm not foolish enough to hope I don't miss you guys. That's probably gonna be impossible. But I do hope I settle these feelings down early enough into my UK adventure, so I can concentrate on my studies and get it over in 1 year. They say the 10 months will just fly. I wish it to fly, only hoping I'm prepared for my exams at the end of it.
posted by Raghuram at 8:23 am
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