Happy New Year... and get out of my way.
Happy New Year guys... It's the beginning of a new era for me, I've made new resolutions. The difference being, this ear, I intend to follow through on these resolutions. I've been keeping my resolutions in a drawer the past few years, slacking off whenever and whereever possible. It's time for a change in lifestyle, perhaps tweaks in the sort of activities i get up to, and saving on expenditure, so I don't have to be a miser in UK. There's gonna be no more clubbing till my exams in July pass, so there's room for balancing the budget with a substantial amount going into the bank each month.
Kinda feel like doing a review of what 2005 has meant to me. Probably should divide this into segments, so it's easier to think through.
Gotta start academically. Hmm, not done to great, nevertheless, I'm through to second year. Gotta buck up this year, the resolution takes care of that. Gotta cut down on distractions, no clubbing, dota should end in a month or so, futsal's a good distraction, so that'll go on. Gotta stop wasting time online, well, needs discipline.
Socially. Met a lot, and i mean a LOT of people. Gotten close too. It was in January that i got my hair cut short and decided to maintain it this way. Thank God for the change in me, it's done me good I think. I kinda like my current group of friends, they have fun together on the whole, and they also have lives of their own. That's what i think life should be about. It shouldn't be all about a certain group of friends, it should be mixing, put the community in a blender and hit frappe! - that's what it should be. Mixing. I've somehow managed to keep in touch with my Aussie friends, it's been a year and a half since I've left, guys.. don't think I don't miss you like hell. We had good times when I was there.. but we also did a lot of things our parents wouldn't be too proud of. We did things our peers (as in people who think like we used to) would've been proud of us. We dedicated our lives (at least I did) to Dota and Warcraft, and look where it's landed us. But I think we've risen from the ashes (yes, Dota burned me), yet I'm not a phoenix. More like a sparrow. Or if I'm in a generous mood, a raven, at the very least. There. Now there's a little standard to be held dear. I'm kinda back to my Dota-ing ways, now that my A-levels and PFS friends are here, but that'll end soon, they've gotta go back sometime. Clubbing, now there's something I will definitely miss for a while now. At the beginning of 2005, there was the deal I made with my parents, clubbing once a month, transferable between months, for birthdays and sort. 2005 was my year in clubbing. Never went before (except the once in Adelaide), and probably not to go for the first half of 2006. I've had my highs and lows in clubs, joys and missed oppurtunities, hopes and regrets. Maybe I should have moved faster with a certain someone, but who knows what she was looking for, perhaps not me. I should probably heed my cousin's advice, and straight out ask her. Dutch courage. I'll need to down a few, perhaps, before I ask her. Sigh. Missed oppurtunities linger longer, perhaps, than required in the deep bowels of one's soul. Oh, and I was a prom king nominee, but never mind that. Nothing happened.
Financially, now. Losses are plenty. Money lent out, never to be seen again, loss of belongings (theft, more like), car crashes aplenty. God, my poor Volvo, my dear sweet Volvo. The things I have put you through. Grieve not, for this year, you will be sent to a car spa, perhaps in Singapore? We (me dad and me) shall seek out the very best. It is the least we could do for 21 years of faithful service. As for the loss of belongings, I know who the theives are. All I can say : watch out motherfuckers, I'm gonna fuck your life up so bad, you won't know which way is up. What hurts me is, these people approach you with the pretence of being your friend. Such careless use of friendship (or should i say pseudo-friendship?) will cost you bad. If i had a 12-gauge... the things I would do to those people. I'd eat their hearts out with spoons, actually, a 12-gauge would end their suffering way too quickly.
Looking back, 2005 has been the socialite year in my life, stuff has happened to me I would never have thought possible. I've been glorified at times, only to stumble and trip myself up. But some highs never dampen. My self-esteem seems undentable, I have pride in who I am. I am Raghuram Krishnan, son of Dr. R. Krishnan, grandson of Dr. M.K. Subrahmanyam. I have Ramanathan Iyer blood in me. I am not a nobody. I am a somebody. I owe it to my forefathers to make something of myself. I should be a blue-blood in my field of choice, just as my ancestors were. I should live my life, head held high, hopping, skipping and jumping up the social ladder, the ladder of society. I belong at the pinnacle of great acheivement, and anything that gets in my way has to be removed. Has to. Must be removed. This is what I have to do.
Kinda feel like doing a review of what 2005 has meant to me. Probably should divide this into segments, so it's easier to think through.
Gotta start academically. Hmm, not done to great, nevertheless, I'm through to second year. Gotta buck up this year, the resolution takes care of that. Gotta cut down on distractions, no clubbing, dota should end in a month or so, futsal's a good distraction, so that'll go on. Gotta stop wasting time online, well, needs discipline.
Socially. Met a lot, and i mean a LOT of people. Gotten close too. It was in January that i got my hair cut short and decided to maintain it this way. Thank God for the change in me, it's done me good I think. I kinda like my current group of friends, they have fun together on the whole, and they also have lives of their own. That's what i think life should be about. It shouldn't be all about a certain group of friends, it should be mixing, put the community in a blender and hit frappe! - that's what it should be. Mixing. I've somehow managed to keep in touch with my Aussie friends, it's been a year and a half since I've left, guys.. don't think I don't miss you like hell. We had good times when I was there.. but we also did a lot of things our parents wouldn't be too proud of. We did things our peers (as in people who think like we used to) would've been proud of us. We dedicated our lives (at least I did) to Dota and Warcraft, and look where it's landed us. But I think we've risen from the ashes (yes, Dota burned me), yet I'm not a phoenix. More like a sparrow. Or if I'm in a generous mood, a raven, at the very least. There. Now there's a little standard to be held dear. I'm kinda back to my Dota-ing ways, now that my A-levels and PFS friends are here, but that'll end soon, they've gotta go back sometime. Clubbing, now there's something I will definitely miss for a while now. At the beginning of 2005, there was the deal I made with my parents, clubbing once a month, transferable between months, for birthdays and sort. 2005 was my year in clubbing. Never went before (except the once in Adelaide), and probably not to go for the first half of 2006. I've had my highs and lows in clubs, joys and missed oppurtunities, hopes and regrets. Maybe I should have moved faster with a certain someone, but who knows what she was looking for, perhaps not me. I should probably heed my cousin's advice, and straight out ask her. Dutch courage. I'll need to down a few, perhaps, before I ask her. Sigh. Missed oppurtunities linger longer, perhaps, than required in the deep bowels of one's soul. Oh, and I was a prom king nominee, but never mind that. Nothing happened.
Financially, now. Losses are plenty. Money lent out, never to be seen again, loss of belongings (theft, more like), car crashes aplenty. God, my poor Volvo, my dear sweet Volvo. The things I have put you through. Grieve not, for this year, you will be sent to a car spa, perhaps in Singapore? We (me dad and me) shall seek out the very best. It is the least we could do for 21 years of faithful service. As for the loss of belongings, I know who the theives are. All I can say : watch out motherfuckers, I'm gonna fuck your life up so bad, you won't know which way is up. What hurts me is, these people approach you with the pretence of being your friend. Such careless use of friendship (or should i say pseudo-friendship?) will cost you bad. If i had a 12-gauge... the things I would do to those people. I'd eat their hearts out with spoons, actually, a 12-gauge would end their suffering way too quickly.
Looking back, 2005 has been the socialite year in my life, stuff has happened to me I would never have thought possible. I've been glorified at times, only to stumble and trip myself up. But some highs never dampen. My self-esteem seems undentable, I have pride in who I am. I am Raghuram Krishnan, son of Dr. R. Krishnan, grandson of Dr. M.K. Subrahmanyam. I have Ramanathan Iyer blood in me. I am not a nobody. I am a somebody. I owe it to my forefathers to make something of myself. I should be a blue-blood in my field of choice, just as my ancestors were. I should live my life, head held high, hopping, skipping and jumping up the social ladder, the ladder of society. I belong at the pinnacle of great acheivement, and anything that gets in my way has to be removed. Has to. Must be removed. This is what I have to do.
posted by Raghuram at 12:40 pm
3 Comments:
I am Raghuram Krishnan, son of Dr. R. Krishnan, grandson of Dr. M.K. Subrahmanyam.
great, Doot
Happy New Year
Your LoTR-Aragorn-son-of-Arathornesque-speech in the last paragraph came as quite a surprise. But it's good that you hold such great esteem for your heritage. We all need some good role models in life. Me? I'm happy with just the regular Playboy or Penthouse ones. *winks*
You DOTA? Where? I sometimes DOTA at netcity Prima Tanjung. Bump into ya soon.
lol Putra, you great big blogless fag... Are you back for holidays? Oh wait.. 5:53 am? I guess not then.
Yeah, I dota.. mostly from home, but sometimes at Netcity Prima(the ground floor branch), more often at Netcity/Infinity Sungai 2. Yeah, we'll have a game sometime..
Post a Comment
<< Home